Im going to vent my anger here. Sorry readers. For something small; my results, COMMON TEST 2 result. I just dont understand why some parents still do not say 'well done' nor 'great improvement' when their child show them their report book though sometimes the grades they got may be an eyesore to the parent's eye. An example, my result. I know i am still not performing up to your mark but AT Least, there were improvements ( i mean a lot) MADE from my common test 1. From a mere passed of 2 subjects in common test 1, i passed all now. Yeas, the grades may be an eyesore to those who did very well. But i am proud to say that all my grades jumped manifold. & i am elated for that.
Although i know that my result was not a perfect straight ace, but i knew very well that i did invested a lot of my time into studies. Sacrifising a lot of my weekdays/ends shooting training time just for revision. Why must they always see my shortcomings and not the things that i did?
Does he thinks that me hanging out everyday with my friends was just for the sake of enjoying life and the saying from my mouth that 'i go out to study' was all a lie?! For goodness sake, it is NOT! i do all this for one purpose. TO DO WELL for O LVL. I know talk is cheap. Show it by your actions. Let me tell you here, i WILL SHOW IT TO YOU AND WAIT FOR THE DAY TO COME. Why do you think i do all these now? The reason is simple, i don't wish history to repeat itself again. Lets assume PSLE. I knew very well that when you saw my education certificate, you were very heart-broken, utterly disappointed with me because you were hoping that i would end up like my sister; express stream but to your dismay, i did not. Instead i was posted to n.a stream. At that point of time, the feeling was like the whole world is crushing down on you.
It was because of that 'tragedy' that i managed to recover and stood up on both feet and life goes on for me. I made an oath to do well for secondary school. Which i did in sec 1 and 2. But not for sec 3. Life has its ups and downs, so do results. So im utterly disappointed in you for not motivating me enough. Although those subjects that i failed in ct1 but managed to pass it in ct2, you did not utter any form of encouragement words, instead you blabbered. What is this? I did my part as an individual to achieve success. I know the grades are still not up to your mark but you tell me... where on earth can you find a person who failed badly in any exams but after the next 2 months, he managed to convert it to Ace. In just a short period of time?! Its impossible! Slowly from a failing grade, you improve to a border line pass grade and then move on further to getting your distinctions. That's how i want it to be. Not by failing in an exam and the next exam you got all distinctions at one go! You know im not born to be smart. I take things slow and steady according to my pace. That's what you said to all teacher whom you have met.
I am happy with the results that i got because i know very well that i did a lot of work to get this. But your blabbering ruins my mood. It would be good if you read this.
Special thanks to my friends who are the motivated type and always encourage me to do my best. Don't look down at the types of friends i study with. Although i go out everyday to study which you think i am not but instead just fooling around and deceiving me, the result have clearly shown you. God knows they will shine. I will too. Give me sometime. I will make you proud. Stop UNDERESTIMATING us.
C.T 1
L1R4:31
L1R5:40
C.T 2
L1R4:21
L1R5:27
You can conclude from here that i made a DRASTIC improvement although it is not worth looking at. This time, i managed to cut down the aggregate by almost to a half. If i continue with this pace , hopefully im able to get the POINTS i want;10 & 13. Slowly i will 'cut' it down to these points. Just YOU wait and see.
truely DISAPPOINTED in you.
changing the course of my life
into something special...